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My teen years been burdened by a disease called bulimic because I’m afraid of gaining weight. I’ve been through my teen years with sickness of eating disorder, vomiting back all the foods, because I went to a situation where my friend used to called me ‘double pedal’ because of my double chin. I’ve also been through a situation where I always think that people around me are insulting and laugh at me just because i am a healthy 60kg fat girl. Each step of mine, I heard people laugh at me, why? Because I’m a fat, ugly annoyed bitch that never want to be your bestfriend. Whenever I look at the mirror, I saw me in a huge size, but I’m happy with my life at that time. There’s a lot of people love me like I do love myself more than everything. I know I’m perfect, too perfect for Brad Pitt I guess.

Until last 1 years, someone useless I used to loved, insult me, laugh at me, because I’m a dummy, ugly fat monster. I live like an ignorance just because I’m fat, that’s why I choose this path where I rather be sick, than be insulted by someone you love most. I started to change. Yes, I lost my weight. 10kg in a month. But I turn from an ugly fat boyish monster who happy with her life into a girl who suffered and tortured by this eating disorder. I turn to become more gloomy than before. My inner voice keep telling me that I’m still fat. I’m sick of everything until one day, I commit suicide because I thought I was 10 times bigger than Shanie.

Ok the end.