Why so boring?

1. Okay exam is coming soon. And now I'm off from school for 2 days. Why do you come so many times, exam? Nobody welcomes you, trust me! I so want to do Maths now but.. I'm too lazy to lift my ass, LOL.

2. I hate it when people take my books away WITHOUT asking me!! Is there anything called 'personal'?

Stop talking, writing, talking, writing about exam and books. Not so good enough mood talk about that.

Well, I never put 100% my trust to people, no matter who you are, male or female. But I’ve done with a mistakes where I should do for the past 16 years I live. I should not put 100% my love for people. Should be 40% I saved for myself. Being honest here, I never love myself. I sacrifices a lot for others. Well that’s such a pathetic lame post. Never again write about tears dear Syahadah Aziz. You don’t need people sympathize on you :)

I talk too much, not so fluent but I’m talking shit too much I guess. Well that’s one point why other girls keep pointing me as bitch, cheap whore, sluts whatever they will called for a girl like me. Don’t hate me girls, I just don’t want to be like you. Don’t you realize you’ve been act like a toys, for man. Yeah, not even for sex (they do give me their middle finger when I mention about sex) But in feelings also, they pretend like they love you like no other will do but behind your back, trust me, he’ll find someone else for him to save his another 40% love. Oh don’t tell me you don’t even think about that? Your boyfriend will find another. For sex 90% maybe.

I never put my trust 100% for Unta. But I’m surprised, he totally changed. Wow, I never expect more on this. But still, no 100% trust anymore and I’ll saved another 20% love for myself. I have to love myself first before I can start loving you again. I love you Unta. And I will know whatever things you’ll do behind my back. Trust me, I have some kind of instinct towards someone I loved most. Lets observe the unobservable. Will you? :)

I’m weird. Too weird for him I guess. And in positive side, I think I’m special because there’s no other woman on earth he knows weird enough like me. Congrats to Syahadah.

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